Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Gettin' the Best of Me....

Sorry for the lack of posts over the past 2 weeks.

I have been in the funk of all funks.

Like down right crabbiest of crabby.

I won't go into details...but will more or less give an overview of my crabbiness state.

... our house is a mess...disaster zone.   We have no carpeting in our house and have really great old and aged hard wood floors.   No carpeting + 6 girls in the house + 3 cats + dirt everywhere = giant sized hairballs.  Gross.  I know.  I can't keep up with the mess.  This makes me crabby.  When the house is messy my mind feels messy and that is no good for anyone.

... we decided we needed a break.  A vacation of sorts.  Dan and I have been going non stop and have had the busiest year of our lives.  A friend of mine gave me the idea of driving to Florida with the kids and just sitting on the beach for a few days.  Driving for 16 hours + 7 kids + 2 cars = Awesome idea!!!  We had it all planned out.  Where we would stay...using a coupon code to get an amazing deal.  Friends would be right down the road from us so we could hijack their vacation plans.  My brother and his family already had booked down there as well and we were going to hijack their vacation plans as well.  We mapped it out.  We planned our dates.  We were going to leave Easter Sunday after I got done working.  It was going to be amazing!  I was going to get much need Sun shine and warmth and most of all relaxation time with the family.  And then reality hit....cavities needed to be filled, bills needed to be paid, food needed to be bought (cause children eat so much food...all the time.)  So with  much much much pouting and groaning and crying and irritation (all on my part) we decided not to go.  I am still having a super hard time with this.  Like daily.  I pull up the place we were going to stay and see if our room is still available.  It is.  Boo.

...someone said something to me last week that stung me to the bone.  I don't even know that what they said bothered me so much.  I let it get to me.  I let it get into my head.

...I am finally mourning Griffin being potty trained.  I had just purchased a ginormous box of diapers from Sam's club...$30 worth.  They still are in the diaper drawer at the house.  He is 3.  He is a big boy now.  He wears undies and can dump his own potty chair bucket into the toilet.  Will that be the last child we will have  get the privilege to potty train?  I am praying he won't be the last one.  However, I am enjoying diaper free days for now!

...Jealousy.  Comparison.  Two topics I have struggled with lately.  I won't elaborate.  Just struggling.

...Cold.  I am sick of being cold.  I am sick of winter.  I need the sun.  I need a healthy tan.  I need to have the kids outside playing.  This is the worst winter I can ever remember for me.  I have never had the winter "blues" but baby I am blue this winter.

...grocery shopping.  I used to love it.  Now I hate it.  Food costs so much and the kids scarf it down and before the week is over I need to go back.  So I have basically boycotted grocery shopping.  Ask my kids.  The other day we had no milk, no bread, no cereal  and no paper bags for their lunches.  Guess who had to get her tushy out of bed early to go get necessities?

I could go on and on and on....but I won't.  I am working hard to get myself out of my funk.

Aside from some poopy things happening these past couple of weeks, some really positive things have happened as well.  I need to focus on the positive and weed out the negative.  I know this.  I am working on this!

I am planning some extra craft sessions for Fridays at the Farm.  I am planning birthday party packages.  I am going to remain positive and know that with God ALL things are possible!

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